What me?

I lied
to myself...
Despite a call that was heard always
I chose to be deaf.
I chose not to speak as I lied
on a barren land of truth!
Submerged in me somewhere...

I tried
to crawl,
to get up and walk up to me...
trying not to look at me
I purposely turned away
from the reflection I had in me...

The stimulations within
and out...
tested by the simulations,
a mere transformation of
self in transgression...

no way to get in
or no way to get out!
within me I kept walking
Nowhere to go ...

Another day of silence
well spoken...
I chose to be so!
As dumb as I am...